I decided to write about this after being constantly feasting on the topic from everyday news and newspapers…until it’s too much for me to keep quiet. I have to pen it down. I don’t think the issue is going to attract this much attention from literally everyone. When I first read about it, I thought, “Oh rally Bersih” but I can’t remember what year it did happen. During 2006-2008? Oh, that. They’re going to organise another one this 9th July. Oh, OK.

So…..what’s all this mess is about? People burning pictures, people wearing Bersih shirts being cuffed away, and the classic pissing each other off – in the NEWS.

From what I know, Bersih 2.0 aim is to demand a ‘cleaner’ elections and its processes. And from my limited knowledge spanning my young adult life, the action of voicing out and delivering your stand to the people fully responsible for our country (Government, that is) is not wrong.

SUHAKAM said that it is legal. You can’t tell them to stop by cuffing them, telling everyone using the news and official statements to hinder people from joining. We are a country new to such changes. I think it’s such a backwards method to handle it. It’s just a request, an enormous request, for Government and SPR to hear out…People who are against it argue about public safety, gangguan aktiviti harian, traffic woes, as well as millions ringgits estimate of losses. People who go for it have said that they want to continue the rally eventhough after meeting with SPR late last year. Not quite a successful meeting.

Before anyone going to stop Bersih, why doesn’t ANYONE answer WHY the 8 request from Bersih can’t be fulfilled? No wait. Does anyone care about the 8 request?? I mean, the people who are against it, do you even know what Bersih requested? I’m sorry, but I do want the same things.

Why can’t you (this is the most annoying) provide equal news and airing times for BOTH parties to woo the voters? Why can’t you provide a solution about Ghost Voters, etc?

Why can’t you handle the matter right? By using prime time news to tell everyone worthless news on Penang,Perak and Selangor?? And now,every newspapers and medias are provoking us on ‘Hidden agenda’ of communism? Now it’s a media fiasco, with every news pouring in. God knows the truth!

What I hate the most is the way the issue is handled. Please don’t treat us voters as stupid…I don’t want to go on my daily life and enjoy what this beautiful and God-blessed country has given me and just ignore the sheer unequality and immaturity of our politics. Stop the media-wh*ring!!

Give equal space,

that’s all we need right now.

And, do not ever associate Bersih with race. It has nothing to do with race. Though in the media, it is. So now that the fire is ignited, and is spreading fast. What now? Reap the seeds sown, then. Bersih has everything to do with being a voter who wants to vote in a healthy environment. We can have it, like other countries. Contohi pilihan raya Turki.

Now we all wouldn’t know how the rally would turn out to be, with all the threats and negative sentiments going around. Emotions are flaring, which is the biggest concern. And the UMNO led Patriots will also be there. It’s a mess. Thanks to the little ego game they’re playing. So, to everyone who will be out there on 9th July rally, whichever side you’re with, show the country how to do PEACEFUL rally so that it can be like,a guide. How To Rally Peacefully for Dummies.lol

This post is for me to take out what I feel, that I agree with Bersih. But, to be agreeing with Bersih is said to be non-Malay. To be 1Malaysia, well, this is more of a dud to me. 1Malaysia is just a bunch of Malaysians who love the country to bits – as far as the country has given him food and money. They only know of one thing – to enjoy…but not to give. I know I’m not that and I don’t want to be like that.

To read the news now is scary, you wouldn’t know what’s right and wrong. Everyone is provoking your thoughts, which I take it as a maturing process. To be able to INDEPENDENTLY decide on what you believe in, is the proof that the country believes in it’s people. They let you grow.

In My Malaysian dream..

p/s : In the moments that I felt like an idiot from watching the news, I would have thrown away the TV, if only I didn’t need them to play XBox…

working life

As I’m writing this post, my internship for my Industrial/Practical Training at Selayang Hospital (I know,again! =D) as training pharmacy student is reaching the last day. I’ve been planning to write the experience because I find it good to write about something that you would want to remember. My internship is only 6 weeks long, yet it felt long enough and has given me (so) many things to learn.

I’m not a passionate student in my class. I’m just there because I have to be there. I’m already there for 3 years. So it’s just me being normal, doing what I have to do. So, it’s a great change of things when I started the internship. The best thing is that I don’t have to studyyy and take exams…though I did my readings on the current tasks in that particular department. But it’s not the same as coming to class at 8 in the morning and sat there until the last class. In between yawns and severe lost of focus, there are other assignments to take home and to toil for. Every week is jam-packed with stuff that we MUST do, in order to continue our studies in the university, to digest as fast as possible because before you know it the final exam is just around the corner. And the cycle repeats for 4 years (3 years in my case), still my ‘adaptive’ mechanism’ to the student life is not developing at par with the amount of responsibility and passion that it demands.

As much as I hate it, I have to admit the significance of good CGPA and GPAs. No matter good you are outside the exam hall, the verdict is still really unpredictable (unlike at school/matriculation exams) when you enter the exam hall with confidence because you had all the time in the world to do everything that you have to do. In university that’s not the way it goes. You are expected to be a lot of person, in one package..It’s a lot, sometimes I lose every interest, every energy that I have left in myself, the driving force, the reason that made me chose this path/course 3 years ago. Sometimes I’m afraid that I might have no reason at all. I’m was a lost 19 year old who didn’t know what to do with her future (I still am sometimes =D).


So, this internship means a lot to me. Fortunately it slowly brings back the desire to move forward in the course of life as a student…just enough for me to (hopefully) finish the coming new and last (hopefully!!!) semester this September. It’s not the best experience,but it shows me in reality what I might be in the near future, how will I look, how I’m expected to behave,the people who works around me,the environment,and most importantly the FEELING. Ade feel la,haha

I’m one of those people who need to be IN the shoes, to know what’s it like to be in the shoes, you know? (I like to stress this twice.hihi)

This kind of approach is (badmouthing my own university hehehe) rarely used during studies. I understand that in this course,like other similar group course, we can’t be exposed to everything too early because it requires experience, practice, and LICENSE to actually do what we will do in the working world. As an attachment student, I just get to do just a small part of tasks. What I have learnt here is that you have to look for things that you can do (do not try to touch stuff that you can’t because mostly it’s because you don’t have the LICENSE yet) If I don’t look, I would just literally sit there from 8 to 5. Everything is at our own initiative. Some place the people there or supervisor will fully guide us, but in Selayang Hospital self-learning is how you get around. They are very ready to help when you ask, though.

It is important to be approachable, courteous, and pleasant to everyone. This is to enable us to mix into various people that works around us. Every position, every race, female or male. Communication skills (that I lacks, a bit.) To me it affects our survival in the workplace because we can’t possibly work well around people that we don’t know, and worse, like. We can, but not everyone is equipped with skills to handle new or  people.

Another thing is try to be useful, at all cost. Prove to them (if possible,everyone.hihihi) that you can handle it, and people will then naturally comes to you. Because of your demonstrated responsible trait, and because they like to ask you instead of their friends (the other staffs!haha) Try to do tasks with minimal supervision in busy departments such as outpatient dept. But in a job like this, accuracy comes first. Speed is second. Though in outpatient you might need both. To achieve that, you need experience. That’s why I’m not allowed to dispense. =| Government hospitals have QAPs to answer to the state dept. and the ministry. In fact, Selayang Hospital is one of the premier government hospital in the country *bangga* (padahal 6 minggu je)

Umm,anything else?

I think others are basic things, like appearance, discipline, and the willingness to learn. They know we don’t know, and it’s OK to be unable to answer questions. Baru student maaa…though if you are able to, your university where you study will get good names LOL. And it’s OK (even MORE OK) to ask around…even to ask where to go for lunch =p

The working world of a pharmacist is indeed interesting, mostly because it’s a mix of everything. Every core subject that we learn in uni, combined with people skills and leadership, and every other disciplines (pharmacoeconomics,legal stuff,managerial skills) concerning every different dept. that we must attach with during training (and working)..And the wide choices to go to if we plan to do other things than hospital pharmacy.

The idea of being a pharmacist fascinates me again after 3 years of bland studies.

I sighed. And tell myself to start being grateful.




Hi to the internet world..to the blogging world..I’ve been an absentee for about 3 months.That is really sad because I do love blogging and writing.But what to do when I don’t have access to internet these days…and with so many things to do in this not-so-long semester break.But I promise to myself I will write more and try to post stuff that I’ve been thinking to post for a period of time.