November

I wish I am all these different persons and be able to finally make peace with all different versions of me
and I’d like to know if I’m really able to fall in love with some mountain tribe guy and live in yurts, taming wild mountain horses doing freelance work
or found it in a past love left unexplored, grounding me to reality whether I like it or not
as much as I’ve said I’m not afraid, I’m still afraid. Of the unknown.
And as much as I admit that I’m afraid, I always underestimate myself.