Sorry blog,haven’t been posting.But I’m writing avidly!!I’m grateful to that.
You know how I have thought about interested in a guy like this and like that?
In the end,it all came down crushed and destroyed.
Do I really want THAT kind of person????
I’ve said I would like techy,a gamer,such and such…but then again…
Look at a real person like that…
Now that makes me think back.
See,you just can’t make a set list of a person you would like to find..
It’s not possible to make it in harmony with reality.
What we think (meeeee) is often overstylized, imagining stuff that won’t be as half as real.
I know I need to be more in the world.You know,the one that all the people of the world is living in..
And not floating in this endless galaxies of my mind.
To think about it,it is ironic that the rule that I live by is realism.
Probably I’m a two faced (more than two,actually) liar living in denial.
Or I just don’t know what I really wanted yet.