It's All In The Mind

Whatever mattered,literally translated


This blog is getting dusty.

In reference to the title of this post, I just discovered the band M83 earlier last month (I’m so late!)  I’m never disappointed so far. Beautiful music. It makes a connection I’ve had before with ambient but they comes with lyrics sometimes, without choruses. The question I always have when I hear to these types of music how do the creative process works in making this music? I really seriously wanted to know. Since I’m brain freezed since 2006…maybe I need to get myself into a creative thinking/ thinking process workshop or something! As I’ve posted before here I feel like my brain was disconnected from what ever importance it had in my life. I made myself proud though this past few weeks I managed to push through and produce something with my hands.

Writing relieved me in ways nothing in this world can or ever could. The other day I was experiencing one of those points in life that makes your head talks erratically. And I was alone in the hotel room, in the company of M83’s music. I didn’t thought of typing it out in my iPod much less picking up a pen and write it out. I was pretty tired of the event I was there for and all I want is to catch some sleep. M83 – Wait (Kygo remix) was on replay thousandth times, looking up the desolate ceiling, smiling for the people that made the trip to this event worthwhile. The saxophone part is too beautiful to drown into, but I’m still not sleeping. My head just won’t shut up. When I was done with the event, the realization to get back to normal life starting to sink. Maybe I had met with an accident, a Godsend, because it makes me feel present, and pretty. I knew at the back of my head I began to feel sad. I need to take it out. That evening I still couldn’t rest my head. That’s when I picked up a pen and squeezed my talking head into its body and it leaked out onto a paper. I finished 2 pages in minutes, writing in the dark of dusk. That night I was able to slept earlier than half of the nights I’ve had these previous months.

For some, writing is a method of conveying information and thoughts, to make it available so that you can see and read it. For some of us, writing is the way to keep sane.

Day of Mourning, 22 Aug 2014


Pic credit : x

10th July


Stay With Me – Sam Smith

Won’t you stay with me
This ain’t love it’s clear to see
But won’t you stay with me?
Stay with me

Coldplay – Ghost Stories

When Ghost Stories was released 5 days ago, it was around midnight here. For some reason I can’t seem to sleep that night. I didn’t even remember I already pre-ordered it some days before. *New mail notification* *opens* OMG my order was confirmed it said. And I was to download the whole album on my iPod, to commence as soon as I receive the confirmation email. It was the best news. I haven’t been buying Coldplay’s 2 albums back (Viva La Vida & Mylo Xyloto). I’m a guilty Coldplayer since all I ever do is listen to them for free on YouTube. I miss the heartbreak and lost I felt from the older albums. So when I put up my earphones and listened to Ghost Stories, first song that came was of course, Magic. It gets a fair amount of airtime on radio. But…yeah it’s a good song but it didn’t picture the album.

Magic. Then, A Sky Full of Stars came on…True Love, O, Always in My Head. Then Midnight, etc.

I was gently surprised at the difference of this album. Chris’ voice, it’s on many different tones unaccustomed to the Coldplay that we knew over the years. The whole album has no climax if it wasn’t for A Sky Full of Stars. The whole album was done in a levelled way, like it wasn’t meant for anything too big or to prove something. In all its nonchalantness, it made me heavy with feelings. Made me reminisce and cry. It was a personal album. As we all know Chris Martin and wife was technically apart very recently, and you just can’t separate this event in Chris’ life with the mood of the album. The sequence of the songs are even more interesting. Starts with I think of you, I haven’t slept ends with looking up to the sky, thinking of love (A flock of birds just hovering above, that’s how you think of love) Before the longing of wanting to fly next to that love, A Sky Full of Stars exploded with sure sounds and sing along tunes. The in between songs are slow (except Ink) and poetic, just working to enhance the overall album. Upon travelling through all the tracks for the first time, I bloody well get it.

Ghost Stories sounds unlike Coldplay so much as it were before. It isn’t experimental though. It doesn’t felt like when Keane released Perfect Symmetry. The moody album is not the kind of bad moody album that you’d avoid when you’re in a cheered mood. It’s a remembrance of what we’ve gone through once or some times in our lives, it felt very real, the love you once had, is celebrated in this album. It doesn’t felt like giving up but, resolution and making peace with yourself. The theme of a love lost somewhere in a long hard fought battle, is very relatable to a lot of us. If you have ever loved someone as much, you would understand and listen to your stories laid out in this album where you could endlessly drown into no end and wish you could write better about your life tragedies! For sometimes the biggest heartbreak  can be the best inspiration. Being in the melancholy and able to fish yourself out is a glorious thing. And for this fact I always thanked Chris Martin and the guys.

Showstoppers : A Sky Full of Stars and Always in My Head.

Still here

I’m young,

I have the right to feel afraid and fearful

over a million things in my head, and beyond

Isn’t it or is it not?

once upon a time

When I decided to Poladroid-ed my fave photos from Seoul trip 2 years ago…love this cool app! Meanwhile Im contemplating on getting 80’s Polaroid camera, currently bookmarking the finds on Etsy


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The Daylights – You Are

Still in love with this song…but still can’t freaking find the lyrics anywhere!
I cant make out the two verses =[ this isn’t correct all the way though

You are my first hello and my last goodbye
You gave my favorite looks from my favorite eyes
You are the light that comes from days of hiding
You are the heavens falling on the earth tonight
You make my heart feel this and my head feel that
And I don’t mean to be sentimental but,
You’re the only thing that means anything
You are

Like ….,
never sinking, defies everything
Like the world is hopeless
you are the savior
my every ….. tonight

You are the innocence in a maddening fight
You are my ……. waiting at the hotel light
Thank God I got one thing right
You are
You are

haha lol

10 Mental Blocks to Creative Writing

10 Mental Blocks to Creative Writing

When I scurried for solutions on why my brain stops working since forever, I googled ‘Writer mental….’

‘Writer mental blocks’ pops up. Hahaha. Im not alone. This is a great article I’ve came across :



Sound of silenc…

Sound of silence

Hello darkness, my old friend,
I’ve come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound…of silence.


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